2015 has been a year filled with long, emotional roller coaster ride for me. Lessons learnt about friendship, studies, work and other personal duties which have casted clouds of doubts to my usual confident and calm self. Too many distractions and diversions for a systematic person like me, will turn my world topsy-turvy (LOL!).
I have always treasured friendship with friends, existing and anew. I greatly appreciate sincerity and honesty in a friend, but loathe politics of all sorts. Loving to share generously what I know, since I’d been there and done that. We all know how it feels like to be ignorant and sometimes helpless or hopeless. Hopefully it will help ease the burden of another person.
But, I have learnt the painful way that sharing has its faults. Same goes to being generous, kind, optimistic and happy. I have also learnt that if I don’t follow the lead of someone, however wrong it may seem, I’m an outcast or I’m classified as rebellious. I also saw how envy and jealousy can destroy a beautiful friendship. Exactly what we see faced by our kids do happen in adult friendship too; as childish as “camps” and “grouping” and passing snide remarks like passing flu virus. If the so-called “leader” dislikes something about you, the rest of the “clan” will boycott you or be critical of you or subtly avoiding you.
I always thought as an adult, being wiser, we should be able to weigh our thoughts and consider our actions, independently. We know how to advise our children or others to follow their hearts and intuition, but sometimes we forgot to take our own advice. Sad…
Something new this year is that I’ve learnt from kind souls on how to cook healthier foods for my family, more about fashion, gardening and other self-enrichment skills. Thanks to them with ❤️.
Moving on to 2016, I shall choose to be more selective with people around me, words spoken and actions made. I shall give permission to myself to be selfish sometimes, to do what is right for me and my family and not pleasing others too much.
The year 2015 has gone to waste in terms of my attempt on completing the thesis for my Masters program. Time is just isn’t enough and I humbly admit that I got distracted with other urgent matters of greater importance. Entering 2016, I have to sit myself like a good student, be more focused and force myself to complete as little or as much as possible day by day till I submit my journal to my Prof. I shall look forward to graduating in 2016. It has to happen!!!!
Work-wise, uncertainty of some sort. Regretably, once a great passion to me has now dwindled to mere interest, in the midst of negotiating my new contract with the firm. I may be very giving but business is still business. Though it is great passion to me, I should be appropriately compensated for my time and effort. For those who had worked with me in the past, they know that I set high expectation upon my deliverables. I pour my heart and soul into it. I was once advised, “If you can’t do your best, might as well don’t do it!”. I shall carry it with me till my last breath.
In 2016, I shall only reward my loyalty in return of appreciation for my contribution. I trust that I have given my very best ever so freely all these years that my conscience is clear.
Life is short and fragile. A new year has come, giving us an opportunity to start afresh on a new page. I also feel that it is time to introduce writing resolutions to my teenage children. Some of you will think that it is a waste of time and adding unnecessary pressure. Me too but I feel that this time, it is going to be different and more fun to do it together with them. Hopefully, we could cross-motivate and monitor one another throughout the year! I’m all excited to greet the new year…!
In 2016, I’ll resume blogging more often and journaling. I’ve stopped writing journals for quite some time but now I feel it is good to start again. You should try doing so too, if you have not already done so. It is therapeutic! Makes one wiser too.
New Year Eve dinner with my beloved family is starting soon. Let me wish you a very happy new year 2016, may your wishes materialize, may your health be better, may your family be showered with love and happiness and finally, many 2016 be a prosperous new year, better and bigger than the last. Have a blast ushering in the new year!
~ Alice N.